When life is so dark
And the sky is gray
Your emotions are not ok
You may have a thought
To do something bad
Do not go with that
Since if you do
Everyone will be mad that your gone
Blame it on some song
And feel so sad
When you look at the word suicide
One thought should pop in
Suicide is bad
And in the end, no one wins
No one cares for me
Thats what I said
WIshing that I was dead
Until a person proved me wrong
Life is more than a death song
Wishing I was dead was wrong
Now she's a great friend
Thoughts like that will never happen again
She's such a sweetheart
My friendship with her will never part
She proved to me
Someone does care for me
Now i ask
Where would i be without her?
I don't care
Unless she wasn't here
Baby brother don't cry
Big brother is here to stop your tear
Rememember we all must die
And mom had to go young
But little brother we can still have fun
Since she'll always be apart
Deep inside our heart
She will always live
Baby Brother
We have to take care
Of the two other who are so dear
Our two little sisters
Need this help too
So big brother to little brother
Just be strong
We all miss mother
But you and me
Have to be there
To stop Tina and Jessie's tears.
God has never answered me
But if he could see
How much she ment to me
How would know
That the tears that floe
Are not a lie
Why oh god why did she have to die
Never did anyone expect her to be gone
But she tragically disappeared
And what I most feared
Came true as my heart turned blue
If I had one more chance
I would never let go
She was the one who risked so much
She was the one who knew best
But now she's up there with the rest
Looking over me
I hope she can see me doing my best
I miss my mother
But I love my sisters and brother
And inside there eyes
I can't see any tears
Somehow they made it
You can say I am a mommys bot
But at age four I became somewhat of a man
I just wished I had my mothers hand
So she could've saw me grow
When you smile I feel
All that love that is real
Forever and ever we said
From age fifteen until were dead
Well it took a strange twist
But we're still here like I wished
In your smile
I see why loving you is worth the while
Till the day we die
We'll be by together
Our love is like an energizer battery
It lasts forever
Your the apple of my eye
Your sweeter then grandma's apple pie
You make me happy after I cry
I'm so glad to be your friend
I'll say it again
Your the apple of my eye
You make me wonder why
All people don't have friends like you
Your always so happy
When i'm down
You pick me up off the ground
I'm so glad I found you
A fruit as sweet as you
Your the apple of my eye
Dear god
It's me again
I know your busy up there
But there's something down here
I made a mistake again
This time it cost me my best friend
I know I was a fool
But a second chance would be cool
Only you can grant
Me the oppurtunity to come back
Dear god
It's over again
Please give me my best friend
You were there for me
Loving care for me
You were here when the skys were gray
No words can say
Say what I feel in my heart
Since we've been apart
Your in heaven and Im down here
Theres been bo one there
No one who I can relate my fears with
No one I can share my tears
It's been so long
But I've finally realized your gone
Without you
There would be no me
For life would be too bleak
I lost my creator to death
And without you
I would have no inspiration to carry on
Life would be worthless
And death would be my next trip
But as timed seemed to be expiring
You popped in to my life
After that my happeniess popped in to gear
And after my life was never again in the rear
So without you
There would be no me
For life would be too bleak
I would've eventually lost to death
But before I could
God gave me one last breath
The night is here
If you care
I have cried my last tear
And prayed against my fears
The night brings so much
With rest and peace
Comes times of heartache and sorrow
With all the nights dreams
Every now and then comes a nightmare
Some are kind and some scare
If you do take them lightly
Then you don't care
For what the night brings
Can only be found where it all lies
Deep inside your body parts
Lies the key to your heart
I lie in my bed at night
Hoping you are near
You are my friend
And I care for you my dear
I know you cry
But life is so cruel
When you feel like youre on top
And you rule
It all seems to glide back down
You eyes turn watery
And your mouth turns blue
The feeling of pain kills you
But you know that I will charm you up
Even though sometimes Im also corrupt
Life is so difficult for us
But together we will make it through
All the times some fool has harassed us
To the times we seemed so UN cool
We've lost so much
Gained so little
Through these times
Our heart turns brittle
But let me say
These words again
Always and forever
ME and You My friend
Will always be together
Ive spent the last hour
Tearing up your flower
Our love has ended
Without a goodbye
Now I sit in my room waiting to cry
I dont know what to say
It feels like I died
Life seems so bleak
Without your daily kiss on the cheek
When I first met you
It felt like I would be with you forever
After we got together
But now my heart is crushed
I guess our love just rushed
And in the end
My heart turned blue
After I realized I lost you
Inside my mind
Is the key to emptiness
Nothing is found
Nothing is lost
Inside my mind I have no clue
Of the way I love
These days our love is mutual
Nothing is great
Nothing is bad
But it could be better
It could be worse
I dont know if you still love me
But I do love you
I never want to make your heart blue
And hopefully you feel the same
Now that I know your game
I have won all the time
Its so easy to say
Love is so great
Till you lose it again
So hopefully you and me
Will be true and free
Never do I want to say
That its over
I always want these days to be ours
Our love will always be together for thousands of hours
Inside my heart
I know inside my heart
That you know Im true
I know inside my heart
That you are feeling blue
I can feel it inside my heart
That your one true love dumped you
Never have you experienced the impact
Of some male breaking your heart and your back
I know you feel like its near the end
But it really isnt my friend
Love is always hard to come by
When one guy dumps you
Girls always cry
But in life we all go through our ups and downs
Our smiles and our frowns
I know inside my heart
Your heart separated apart
And you feel so alone
When your family isnt home
You feel like taking the knife
And ending your life
But inside my heart
I know you truly understand
That you and every other girl
Can always get this man
One Day she will come
It is hard for me to understand
Why every girl cant find this man
I try so hard sometimes
To win a girls heart
Every time I do
I find a girl whos rude and cruel
I dont know what to do
All I want is a girl like you
Inside I know
One day she will show
The light will beam
And her heart will gleam
My life will change for the good
And I would pour my heart and soul out
And if the day we broke up would come
All I would do is pout
For giving so much to a girl
Your heart Your mind And all your emotions
Can lead to nothing in return
Please come back to me
I was so lost and blind you see
The word that I said
Left our friendship in the dead
Now my heart is blank
And I have the lost friendship to thank
How could I be
Such a fool to someone who was so nice to me
I cant explain
Why that word came out of my brain
But please oh please understand
I am going insane
Just thinking about you my friend
I promise to never hurt you again
The word has no meaning
Not to someone like you
I wasnt cool until I met you
Thanks to my act
Im left to be a fool
Now I understand
Why the w word isnt cool.
By the touch of your hand
I understand
That I will always be your man
If I could be
What my every dream has to see
I know I would cry
For reality seems so far away
I know youre my friend and youre here to stay
But I just dont know
How I could really make my love show
I tell you over and over that I am true
Wondering if you would take my words unlike a fool
I just want you to understand
The reality it is to be a man
Searching through a beautiful girls mind
Trying too hard to find
That key to her heart
Its so hard to be apart
I need your love in my hands
So I can treat its wounds everyday
Girl what do you say?
Will you be the one?
Coldness comes with the night
Darkness comes with no light
In this world
Evil comes with sin
Love comes from with in
And Heartache comes with pain
Heartache comes with insanity
The evil ness gets to your brain
Life becomes dark
And light eventually hides beneath darkness shadow
Coldness brings the evil out more
Once you turn evil there is no exit door
Reality turns gloomy
And your life feels kind of roomy
You lose all your friends
You lose all your hope
Once again
You seem on the losing end
It all doesnt matter
Your heart is taking out on a platter
Now you need to see
The light shine back in
Only you can change those suicide feelings within
Life is sometimes hard to figure out
Times get so tough that you scream and shout
You lose your mind and start to pout
Things seem so rough
When all that you deal with is tough
Anger builds up in to balls
And eventually you blow your lid and fall
Life is sometimes hard to figure out
When times are so hard to see
When all is left is god and you
You feel like youre so abandoned in the world
That all you do is tear
Until you eventually find out there are loved ones there
Life is sometimes mischievous to the eye
You look at life one way
And it turns out to be the other
When you end up missing your mother
And all you can turn to is your little brother
It seems so weird in a way
Life is sometimes so hard to believe
Life is sometimes so hard to figure out
If you just let out a shout
If you just let out a loud pout
Everything will turn out to be okay
Even if you have a rough patch of days.
Roses are red
Violets are dark blue
These feelings inside
Are all about you
No girl has has such a effect
No girl has made me dream 24-7 in bed
When you're near
I start to feel the earth rumble
Your eyes makes my heart crumble
No one has treated me like a prince
No one else even comes close to you
You are the best
Unlike the rest
Your a true princess to me
Your sweetness is greater then sugar and honey
My love for you is worth more then money
Every fear I had is gone
Whenever your near my heart repeats a love song
With you just a friend
It seems like you are so much more
A five minute phone call
Is better then me having it all
I know your the best
Unlike the rest
You truely are a true princess
Its been a eternity it seems
Since I saw your eyes glare
Eleven years later
All i have is a picture to stare
God took you away
I've learned my lesson
But your not coming back
I guess I'll have to listen
To everyone reminising about you
I know so little
But you mean so much
When you last kissed me
I never thought that would be
The last time I see you
(the poem on poetry.com that i could win 1,000)
You deserve better
Was what you wrote
In your goodbye letter
Never did I hear
Any of those words
Since on that letter
Was a little tear
I knew something wasn't right
Your heart gave us
One last fight
But you had t ogo
Which really wasn't true
Since on the bottom of that letter
You still wrote I love you
Dear Jesus
I know you got so much to do
But my heart is blue
I lost an angel sent by you
She was my mother
You took her away when I was four
Thats not fair
It broke my little heart and produced a lot of tears
Now eleven years later
I live with my princess as the best
But I love my mom more then words
The feelings built up inside
Are more than any one can understand
Whether your a woman or a man
You need to listen to my heart beating
The words "I love my mom" keep on repeating
It's insane to say just goodbye was enough
The loss of my mom was very tough
I need you to answer me
Why Jesus Why did my mother have to go
You could've tooken any other
But instead
You took my mother
The one who produced four kids
Two girls and my brother
Dear Jesus
Thanks for the time
When I leave please send me to heaven
How can the one I love
Just go out and break my heart
How could you just walk out the door
And not love me no more
Won't someone explain to me
Why I can not see
The heart she borrowed and made sorrow in the end
Will I ever love again?
How can she just walk out and expect me not to shout
Are you coming back?
How can the one i gave my life to
Make me want to die in the end
How can anyone understand?
Inside your eyes
I see the ocean spread wide
Inside your heart
Is the pain that you hide
You think its hidden from my eyes
But you dont realize
There are still tears in your eyes
I know you cry
I cry too
But I dont know what happen to you
Everyday youre smiling wide
Everyday you hold the pain inside
You need to let it go
Before the hole inside you shows
Its not hard to do
Just say it to me
I promise that your secrets and your lies
Will never be despised
When the sun sets
And a full moon comes out
Instead of having fun
You laying in your bed about to pout
The sun sets on your eyes
You can stop the tears
You miss having him there
But the world isnt over
Just not yet
You have to turn back the clock
And stop the pain
Look inside my brain
And realize he has driven you insane
All you have to do
Is let him go
If he comes back
Then you know it is truly true
If he doesnt come back
Then it wasnt true
Dont let yourself lose in his game
Youll only look like a fool.
The nights without you still live on
Even though I know
Living without you is wrong
I miss you dear
I cry every night wishing you were still here
Even though it may not show
I go to school and act like everything is cool
Even though the pain eats out my heart
Death lies beneath my skin
I just dont know where to begin
Is it me
Or does the whole world hate to see others die
Is it just me
Or am I not the only guy to cry?
I just dont know what to do
I have no nope and everything looks so blue
Deep inside I know
That your love and your nourishment will always show
But its just so hard to say goodbye
Even if I stop and cry
I know you just had to die
Pain pain please go away
The feeling you have is here to stay
I can not stop the thought inside my brain
Pain is driving me insane
Its so hard to cope with
Its so hard to let go
Now that I know you will never ever show
No not again my friend
Please pain go away
The feeling of loss is here to stay
I dont need two negatives at once
Two negatives this big will never make a positive
So please pain go away
Please dont comeback another day
I have to deal with other things
Like losing the weight beneath my wings.
Every day I wake up and see
The life that shouldnt be
If god didnt take away my mother
We all would be together
Oh how its hard to not see your brother
Weeks and weeks apart it seems
As the world of others beams
My world looks into a deeper scene
Where the world has its problems
But mine seem to stick out more
I cant seem to shut pains door
It keeps on reopening
Its just to hard to say goodbye
Especially when you are trying so hard not to cry
But it just cant be handled
The pain builds up until your emotions all come out
And all your four-year-old body can do is pout
I just have to ask eleven years later
If my mother was still alive
Would I love her as I do now?
Or would I hide the love and say I hate her?
Its the day to celebrate your mother
But I cant say I have much to celebrate
Besides the life that was lost
I did not know her well
Nor did I have a lot of contact with my dad
Which was swell
Now I have grown up and realized
Others have been a second mother
Which means I will always have one brother
And my sisters will always be the only two
Even though sometimes they say I hate you
I know deep inside my siblings
That they really do care
Even though its a holiday for mothers
I think I have a couple aunts
A couple of special ones
Who have shown me the way to go
Who have stuck out there neck and glowed
And I know that life isnt the same without my mother
But its time to realize
That every now and then
You have to put aside the emotions
And let another become a step one
Now I am like a stepson
But inside I know
That the only mother I will know
Will always rest in peace in heaven
The moon sets on the night
The stars shine really bright
I wonder what my dream of you will be tonight
I wonder if you dream of me
In a boat on the big blue sea
Loving each other longer then forever
You and me on the ladder to heaven together
It seems like ancient history
But in reality
That has never happened
I do not believe in giving up hope
For losing hope means losing what means the most
I believe in dreams
And what comes out of dreams are what we really asked for
Even though I ask for you as more
I still know youre my friend and you will treat me right
Even though my dreams are nice
I know I can call you up any night
If I have a fear
I will always know that you will be there
For every fear I have had
Has came true including never meeting my dad
But the only fear that is still here
Hopefully will never cause a tear
For losing you
Would mean all my nightmares are
Truly true.
Inside my heart is feeling lonely and blue
What you said made me think about you
Do my poems have any meaning at all
Or do these feelings happen to drop out and fall
As the night darkens
I lie in my bed and think
Should i believe anyone who does not agree with my ideas
Do your words have any meaning at all
Or do the things you say happen to make my heart fall
As the day begins i look over and understand
That following the yellow brick road doesnt take you to being a man
What others may think differs from what you say
The words you say mean more to you each and every other day  You are the only light I see
In the tunnel of dark
You are the only one I seee
For you are my only spark
You are the vision I need
When the world is full of greed
I look at you and wish for the loving i need
One day turned into a million tears
After the secret I feared
Was let out into the open air
But now that you know
I sit here and stare
As your beautiful self causes me to tear..
(wrote^ that 1 for someone in my marketing class..u know who =P)
The pain i feel
Is surrounded by the make believe
I ask myself what is real
So i can find relief
In my mind these feelings slow my brain
The thoughts the pain
Everything causes me to go insane
This life seems so dark
No light No spark
The pain seems to want to stay
Even though it seems im happy day to day
Inside i cant stop the hurt
I just wish i knew
How to turn my heart red not blue
For this pain and stress
Is causing me to rest not play
An all i want is one day
To wake up and say
That the pain is gone to stay
But I knew I could never
For this pain and I will always be together
In this world I do not know
Why all this violence shows
We all should get along
Instead the death just begun
No one really understands
Why humans kill other woman and men
It's all a big mistake
When you kill you cause heartache
You don't get anything dood
In return you must learn
How to deal with hell before you get burned
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